• Akiko: Talking Elbows

Volume three. Broken world

To worship a Bodhisattva at a time when crisis and change are about to usher in, this kind of behavior seems a bit like going to the doctor in a hurry.

在即将迎来危机与变故的时候去拜菩萨,这种行为看起来有点病急乱投医的意思。

However, Qing Chen felt that the supernatural phenomenon on his arm itself should be left to the supernatural being to take care of it.

然而庆尘觉得,手臂上这超自然现象,本身就应该交给超自然的存在去管。

For Qing Chen, paying respects does not suffer.

对于庆尘来说,拜一拜自己也不吃亏。

He likes to make preparations ahead of him and does not leave himself a chance to regret.

他喜欢把准备工作做在前面,不给自己留下遗憾的机会。

The time is 9:30 in the evening.

时间为晚上9点半钟。

Qing Chen sat on the bed and looked down at the phone. There was only this faint light in the bedroom, and only a few words from the same table Nan Gengchen in WeChat, and no one else sent him a message.

庆尘坐在床上低头看了一眼手机,卧室里只有这微弱的光,微信里也只有同桌南庚辰发的寥寥数语,再没有其他人给他发来消息了.

His mother Zhang Wanfang’s WeChat portrait was quiet and quiet, which made Qing Chen a little bit disappointed.

母亲张婉芳的微信头像安安静静的,这让庆尘有一丝失落。

Of course, it’s just a trace.

当然,也只是一丝罢了。

He didn’t know what he was expecting.

他也不知道自己在期待着什么。

In fact, he does not blame his mother.

其实他并不埋怨母亲。

His father sold many properties in his family through gambling, as well as domestic violence and derailment. Qing Chen didn’t feel that there was anything wrong with his mother’s initiative to divorce.

父亲赌博将家里多处房产变卖,还有家暴行为、出轨行为,庆尘一点都不觉得母亲主动离婚有什么错。

On the contrary, Qing Chen, who saw his father hit his mother with his own eyes, was even happy for his mother’s choice.

相反,曾亲眼看到父亲动手打母亲的庆尘,甚至为母亲的选择感到高兴。

Because this is correct.

因为这是正确的。

On the eve of the parents’ divorce, my grandmother once persuaded her mother not to divorce: You are a woman who takes her teenage son as an oil bottle. How can she get married in the future? Who will remarry you?

在父母离婚前夕,姥姥曾劝母亲不要离婚:你一个女人带着十几岁的儿子当拖油瓶,以后还怎么成家?谁会跟你再婚?

Hearing all this, Qing Chen chose to live with his father when his parents divorced.

听到这一切的庆尘在父母离婚之际,选择了跟父亲一起生活。

He remembered his parents’ look of astonishment at the time, but Qing Chen knew that this was also the right choice.

他记得父母当时错愕的神情,但庆尘知道这也是一个正确的选择。

Now that his mother has started a new life and formed a happy new family, Qing Chen may be a little bit lost, but he is still very careful not to disturb.

如今母亲开启了一段新的人生,组成了一个幸福的新家庭,庆尘或许有些失落,但依然很小心翼翼的不去打扰。

Countdown 2:31:12.

倒计时2:31:12.

Qing Chen suddenly thought of a question. If this is the last two and a half hours of his life, what should he do?

庆尘忽然想到一个问题,如果这是自己人生中最后两个半小时,那自己应该做什么?

This question is actually both serious and romantic.

这个问题其实既严肃又浪漫。

Because it is asking you what you want to do most in your life, but you haven’t had time to do it, or what you dare not do.

因为它是在问你,你人生中最想做,却又还没来得及做、或者不敢做的事情是什么.

Unexpressed love, people who met but didn’t see, places you want to go but didn’t go, and things you want to say but didn’t say are all in the answer category.

未表达的爱意,相见却没见的人,想去却没有去的地方,想说却没有说的话,都在答案范畴。

Ask this question straight to my heart.

这个问题,直问本心。

Qing Chen got up and put on his coat. He unexpectedly chose to go out again when there was not much left in the countdown.

庆尘起身穿上外套,他竟然在这倒计时剩余不多的时候,选择了再次出门。

He pushed his broken bicycle out of his house, rode it on, and drove all the way to the destination.

他把自己的破自行车推出家门,骑上之后一路朝目的地飞驰而去。

In the autumn night, the wind was a little bit cooler, and the pedestrians on the road gradually became scarce.

秋季夜晚的风有些微凉了,路上的行人渐渐稀少。

Qing Chen, who was riding on the bicycle, looked calm, and the hem of his coat was blown backward by the wind on the bridge.

骑在自行车上的庆尘面色平静,外套的衣袂被桥上的风给向后吹去。

He did have a lot of regrets in his life, and there were also many things he dared not do.

他这辈子确实有很多遗憾,也有很多不敢做的事情。

But tonight he doesn’t need cowardice and fear, just courage.

但今晚他不需要怯懦与畏惧,只需要勇气。

At a certain moment, Qing Chen was thinking, if he really was going to die tonight, then he should finish the most important thing too, he didn’t have time.

某一刻庆尘在想,如果自己真的要死于今晚,那就也该把最重要的事情做完才对,他没有时间了。

He first went to the Peony Hotel, then to the Luocheng Hotel, and also to the Luoyin Family Home, but there was no one he was looking for.

他先去了牡丹大酒店,又去了洛城大酒店,还去了洛印家属院,但是那里都没有他想找的人。

Qing Chen rode a bicycle all the way through the alley, drove across the Qilihe Bridge, and came to a residential building downstairs.

庆尘骑着自行车一路穿过小巷,驰过七里河桥,来到了一栋居民楼下。

When he saw the familiar broken second-hand motorcycle parked downstairs, he heard the sound of rubbing mahjong on the second floor…

当他看到楼下停着的那辆熟悉的破二手摩托车,又听到二楼的搓麻将声……

Then I picked up my phone and dialed 110: “Hello, Comrade Police, I want to report to Room 201, Unit 2, Building 17, Longteng Community, Luojian District, where people gather for gambling.”

然后拿起手机拨了110:“喂警察同志您好,我要举报洛涧区龙腾小区,17号楼2单元201室,有人聚众赌博。”

The police officer on the opposite side seemed to be stunned for two seconds before reacting: “Okay, we will arrange for the police now.”

电话对面的接警工作人员似乎愣了两秒,然后才反应过来:“好的,我们现在安排出警。”

Only then did Qing Chen relax, turned around and rode his bicycle home.

直到这时候,庆尘才放下心来,转身便骑着自行车回家去了。

The idea has been reached.

念头通达了。

When he got home, Qing Chen glanced at the white lines on his arm, counting down 1:02:21 seconds.

到家,庆尘看了一眼手臂上的白色纹路,倒计时1:02:21秒.

He began to review his preparations.

他开始重新检视自己的准备工作。

Wait, do you want to welcome that moment at home?

等等,自己要在家里迎接那一刻吗。

Qing Chen had watched a horror movie before. The story was about the protagonist bumping into something dirty, and as a result, a ghost would find him at midnight every day.

以前庆尘看过一部恐怖片,故事讲的是主角碰到了脏东西,结果就会有鬼在每天半夜12点的时候找到他。

Then the protagonist hides in Tibet, even in the deep mountains and old forests, but can always be found by ghosts.

然后主角东躲西藏的,甚至还躲到深山老林里,却总是能被鬼找到。

At that time, Qing Chen was thinking, why doesn’t the protagonist go to a crowded place?

那时候庆尘就在想,这主角为啥不去人多的地方呢?

Although ghosts are very powerful, in general, everyone feels more secure in crowded places.

虽然鬼很厉害,但一般情况大家在人多的地方都会更有安全感啊。

For example, the protagonist can go to a nightclub and wait for the ghost to find the door at 12 o’clock in the middle of the night. Hundreds of people in the nightclub are shaking their heads amidst the roaring music. No matter how you look at it, it seems that ghosts are more afraid…

比如主角可以去个夜店呆着,等半夜12点鬼找上门的时候,夜店里几百人在轰鸣的音乐声里甩着脑袋,怎么看都感觉应该是鬼更害怕一些啊……

So when Qing Chen thought of this place, he began to think, should he go to a place with more people?

所以庆尘想到这里就开始思索,自己是否也应该去个人多的地方?

Or, he can go directly to the White Horse Temple in Los Angeles… After all, there are Bodhisattvas there.

再或者,他可以直接去洛城的白马寺啊……毕竟那里有菩萨。

There are not only Guanyin Bodhisattva, but also Manjushri and Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva.

不仅有观音菩萨,还有文殊菩萨、地藏王菩萨。

It also looks safe.

也很有安全感的样子。

However, Qing Chen chose to stay at home in the end. He felt that compared with demons and ghosts, when the countdown was over, zombies were more likely to appear.

然而庆尘最终还是选择留在家里,他觉得相比起妖魔鬼怪而言,倒计时结束的时候,更有可能出现丧尸之类的东西。

If this thing really happened, it would be no different from going to a crowded place than looking for death. On the other hand, the Bodhisattva doesn’t seem to have the business to deal with this kind of thing.

真要是出现这玩意,那他去人多的地方跟找死没啥区别,另一方面,菩萨好像也没有处理这种事情的业务。

Qing Chen had already prepared supplies at home, if it was really a zombie attack, then he could hide at home for a while.

庆尘已经在家里备了物资,如果真是丧尸来袭,那他还能躲家里顶一阵子。

The countdown is 00:31:49.

倒计时00:31:49.

In the last half an hour, Qing Chen turned on the lamp on the desk and quietly wrote a suicide note and left it on the table.

最后的半个小时里庆尘将书桌上的台灯打开,安静的写下了一封遗书留在桌上。

If he died today, maybe one day in the future, his family and friends will still be able to see the last thing he wants to say.

如果他死于今日,或许未来某一天家人与朋友还能看到他最后想说的话。

If he didn’t die, his life might be another world.

如果他没死,那他的人生或许将是另一番天地了。

Countdown to 00:00:12.

倒计时00:00:12。

After finishing writing his suicide note, Qing Chen sat up, holding the eviscer tightly in his right hand, and the pupils suddenly narrowed in his clear eyes.

写完遗书之后的庆尘端坐起来,他右手中紧紧的握着剔骨刀,清澈的眼睛里,瞳孔顿时收窄。

The more the last moment, the calmer his emotions became.

越是最后一刻,他的情绪便越发的宁静。

It was like a tsunami that stood still at the moment when it was about to engulf an isolated island, and there was no undercurrent surging under the sea, only deep thinking and fierce courage were left!

就像是海啸在即将吞没孤岛的一刹那静止了,海面之下也没有暗流涌动,只剩下深沉的思考与炽烈的勇气!

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No ghosts, no zombies, no disasters.

没有鬼怪,没有丧尸,没有灾难。

Qing Chen quietly watched the time around him fall into a static state, the time on his phone seemed to stay above 12:00:00 forever.

庆尘静静的看着自己周遭时间陷入静止,他手机上的时间像是永远停留在了12点0分0秒之上。

The second hand of the clock hanging on the wall suddenly stopped beating, and the light outside the window no longer flickered.

墙壁上挂着的时钟秒针突然不再跳动,窗外的光也不再摇曳。

He stood up, the frozen time seemed to be shattered by the movement of his getting up, and the world in his eyes shattered like a mirror.

他站起身来,凝固的时间好像被他起身的动作给打碎了似的,眼中的世界宛如镜子般碎裂开来.

Qing Chen lifted the boning knife in his hand and looked around. The desk was gone, and the room was gone, only darkness was left.

庆尘提着手中的剔骨刀环视四周,书桌没有了,屋子也没有了,只剩下一片黑暗。

Immediately afterwards, he too fell into darkness.

紧接着,他也陷入黑暗之中。

Time does not know how long it has passed, but it seems that there is only a moment. Qing Chen at this moment suddenly lost the concept of time.

时间不知道过去了多久,但又好像只有刹那,这一瞬间的庆尘忽然失去了时间的概念。

In the darkness, the fragments of the world began to piece together again, and the fragments that did not know where they came from, combined into a completely new world in an instant.

黑暗里,世界的碎片开始重新拼凑,那不知道从何而来的碎片,刹那间组合成了一个焕然一新的世界。

Qing Chen was lying on a narrow hard board bed. It was a completely unfamiliar environment. He had never been here before.

庆尘躺在一张狭窄的硬板床上,这里是完全陌生的环境,他从不曾来过。

He looked at his palm first, there was nothing there, and the eviscer he was holding had long since disappeared.

他先是看向自己的手掌,那里空无一物,原本握着的剔骨刀也早就消失不见。

He looked at his arm again, and suddenly found that the white lines on the arm had changed.

他再看向手臂,赫然发现手臂上的白色纹路已经改变。

“Countdown to return 48:00:00.”

“回归倒计时48:00:00.”

For 48 hours, which is 2 days, Qing Chen thought.

48小时,也就是2天,庆尘思忖着。

The next moment, the countdown jumped for a second: the countdown to return 47:59:59.

下一刻,倒计时跳动了一秒:回归倒计时47:59:59.

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